As I sit and think about our life we have, it is hard not to feel thankful and blessed, but at the same time, we feel we have a void in our life.
It's no big secret that we struggle with infirtility and are trying to adopt, but the feelings that come with dealing with the situation are much more private. There are so many emotions and sometimes, we feel them all at the same time.
Some people just don't understand. They think they do, but unless you have gone thru it, you don't fully understand.
There are times that I feel fine and happy.
There are times when I am sad and angry.
There are times when I am so emotionally out of control and don't know why.
There are times when it is a mixture of everything.
It is easy to feel down and depressed and not knowing what to do to get out of the deep dark hole.
Don't get me wrong, I love my life. I have the best husband ever, who loves me, who is there for me thru the good and the bad, who works hard to support us, who holds and honors the priesthood, and whom I am so in love with and am thankful to call him my best friend. Yet there is still that void that our family just is not complete.